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Had a pretty bad day yesterday or at least it ended that way.  Thought a session of quiet time in reflection would help, it didn't.  Tried with all my might to just go to sleep to get reprieve from my thoughts and against my will I think I was somewhere between awake and trying to sleep most of the night as the horror of my thoughts kept circling my head.  This morning I am a mess, at least that is how I look according to the mirror.  No amount of make-up will hide my puffy eyes or the bags camped out beneath them.  I will go to work, I will put on the best face I can, I will make small talk and laugh, I will try to not think about anything.

My heart is broken and aches more than any word I can type.