Is there magic in controlling the tape measure?  Is it mind over matter?  Self-control? The right program? Personal trainer? Or could it be something else?

I am waiting for the answers but perhaps they are not "out there".  Maybe they are inside, in a place that I haven't looked yet. 

For years I have been a pro at getting in shape, losing excess weight, eating better (never have I eaten a balance diet though), I've played by the rules of Weight Watchers with much success. But the doubt always creeps back in, self-sabotage, and in no time at all - I end up back where I started or worse.  What am I  really running or hiding from?

There have been the excuses: the sedentary job; bad knees; genetics; age; boredom; too expensive; too much time...and so on.

What does it really boil down to?  I am not a lazy person, I know good choices vs. bad choices, I am fully aware of the consequences physically and emotionally.   I will no longer replace one addictive behavior with another "for the greater good".  There is an answer, it is within me - my spirit - and I just need to listen and focus and trust.